2013 ending in 35 more days.

Its been almost a year that my blog is left abandoned. The last post i posted was in the month of December last year. 2013 is nearly coming to an end. there's too much things happened. People walked in and out of my life, leaving memories and scars. but hey, god doesn't give you the people you want but instead He give you the people you need. be it, the people i called friends and the people whom i tried to love them. believe it or not I've never involved myself in a serious long term relationship after my previous relationship was a failure. cant deny the fact that whatever has got to do with love or relationship, i tend to be sensitive over issues that has got anything to do with it. i admit that i wasn't a good partner to someone i contacted or dated because at that point of time, i wasn't fully moved on. i played around with guys feeling just because someone in my past fucking hurt me real bad. i know i wasn't supposed to do that. i thought by doing that i would be happier but no, i got sick and tired of being that way. i started to settled down and be serious. i liked, i fell, i got attracted with the guy i contacted with but all that was just temporary. i don't feel regretful a single bit, cus i believe if its meant to be it will be, but the funny thing is i didn't see them in my future, i was that dumb to actually let them in. that's how complicated i am to be in love. but Alhamdullilah, i am now trying to be someone better and hopefully whatever i have now, stays this way. Insyallah.

apart from my complex love life, i have this problem called "fake people". I've learned that keeping a small circle of friends its more legit than having a lot of them. but sadly, people now a days are chasing for fame. right? well, that fame doesn't bring you anywhere. what are the possible whys that people really into it? its like are you really mad? being humble and low profile is way better. that is to me, no offence alright. and for the fake people who left a footstep in my life, start being real cus being real need less effort than being fake. 

may god bless you people. good day ;)