i'm so happy to say that my national exams is finally over. ahhhhh now i'm gonna busy working. and for sure i won't have so much time with boyfriend. boohoo. nvm. haha. oh yes, to those who still have their last paper on monday, all the best okay ;) so im gonna go for interview in few hours time with adik. yeay. so excited :D but apart from that, i have been having so much things running through my mind. i just don't understand people who always think of their thoughts for a long period of time. and the thought they are having is negative. i don't know. eventhough i'm young i know what i do and my limits. to people who still treat me like a primary school kid please change your mind set. i'm getting older. i wanna be independent. i don't need anyone to assure me if i'm gonna know what to do or not. yes, i have a lot still to learn. and for that, i try to learn along the way. let me learn and gain my self-confidence and let nothing holds me back. let me rest and enjoy for these few months before i get my results back and decide which path to go. one more thing, i'm the youngest but you can't force me to do what you know it's best for me when the fact is that i know myself better.everyone have their own ability to do what's best for themself. and you people don't have to decide what's best for me cause when you think what's best for me is really best and if i still can't please you people with what you think its best for me, it still gonna turn out the same way. i'm still gonna disappoint you people. and taking my national exams, there's no failure in the end it's just that my result determined whether i can continue another year of education at my secondary school or i'm fuging going out of my secondary school to a new school. there's no failure. it's the way of how you guys think of it. even if i couldnt make it my way up to sec 5, i still know what i'm gonna do for my future. stop saying that you guys are worried about me and all. see what i mean? you guys still treat me like a small kid when you guys know i'm on a growing up stage and still have lots of things to learn throughout my life. please, i want to do what i really want. don't stop me from doing what i want to do with my future. cus afterall, i'm gonna prove whoever that underestimate me wrong. ok lah bye. i shouldn't be elaborating about it anymore. it's just making me feel down. what i  know now that i wanna be happy and enjoy myself. k bye.(: