so i guess, i will be active back in blogging cause i'm not using facebook anymore and it's final. and i gonna be active in twitter, tumblr and 9gag too. tumblr and 9gag actually kinda similar with each other. so yeah, started my first day of work yesterday. i enjoy working there cause all the people there are very friendly and kind. i just feel comfortable working with them. eventhough it was my first day yesterday but it doesn't feel like it's my first day. but i won't be at that outlet for long cause they gonna transfer me somewhere further. :( so after work boyfriend fetch me. hehehe. i suka. so i'm gonna slack my buts off untill 3 and get ready for work again. hahah.

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so it's the second day since that 'thing' over. i hope you would really learn this time round. yes, i am still scared for the future. haisss. but i wouldn't want that feeling to stop me from doing anything. i still hold onto my words. i hope you would read back my text and will do what i want to see along the way. you know, the moment when i let my heart take over control it's when everything turn out bad. and when i let my mind take over control it's when i really didn't see any bad things happening. so now i don't know if i should let my mind control me first until i really feel like i can let my heart take over back. my heart is too soft for it to handle. so it's mind and heart matters? yes. i just don't know. i won't let anything in me change cause i promised you not to change. i know if i'm not gonna be the same anymore, it's obvious things between us won't be the same too. you don't want that to happen, i don't want that to happen too. but sometimes, the best way is to be in the hard way. maybe then it works. so for now, i will just hope that history won't repeat itself like again. cause after all what i have for you is " i am sick and tired of everything". yeah it's true i'm trynna tp accept whatever that falls unto me but i still have my limits for everything and even this. i'm sure everyone has their own limits right. and it's true that human make mistakes, but that doesn't mean you can't learn from your mistakes right. it's either you really want to learn from it and try not to do it again or you don't learn from it and eventually you will do the same mistake all over again. and one more thing, even if things are fated to be that way, we can't just rely on fate. we can change it by putting effort to be at our best or not. so yeah, this young teenage girl here can only continue hoping and pray that Allah gonna protect her. sometimes god test us because He knew we can over come it cause He won't test us over our limit. cheers* 

baby, we are left with 16 more days :) i love you.