if youre worried i didnt die of boredom just because i gotta be home by midnight. lets face it im a girl, a muslim girl even. you gotta understand where i came from. my siblings we are all girls, three of us. my dad is the only man in the house. you know how this goes? hes the protective king who cares about all his daughters safety because we are girls, as much as girls hates to admit it, we are vulnerable. so obviously, being the only man in the house, a father to three girls, he would be extra careful and wouldnt let us be somewhere out there wasting ourselves at night. 

then comes the another part where these shallow kids who have spent too much time outside at night ask this question "oh your dad is strict?" i dont know why i even take this kind of question personally. maybe becus it gives me the mental image that shows my dad is not the 'cool type' and always have a cane in his hand when he dont. if being strict about our prayers makes him a strict man then i would say he is strict but if being strict just becus he gives a shit enough to not let his daughters be out there at night then thats not strict, airhead, thats called concern. a genuine father to daughter concern. 

so how do girls like us whos tied to a curfew lives? i dont know? attitude i guess. it all depends on how you're being brought up. somehow the idea of club, smoke, or drink is funny to us, like why would one prefers to enjoy their life wasting it away or not remembering what they do at night 'thats considered fun' and forget it the next? yeah deny it as much as you want, pro drinkers. no problem with that but is it worth it to wake up with a heavy head, just becus you wanna have 'fun'? 

so if youre asking me how the hell am i living my life just becus i have curfew and not party i would ask you back, how the hell do you live your life covering yourself with these pointless sins knowing genuinely that you are sinning but still not feeling the guilt of it? atleast as boring i am to you, im safer here and how my boyfriend deals with my curfew? its easy, just send his girl home before midnight becus he know better than to let his girl out there at night doing godknowswhat and what, you think theres no activities in the day that we can do? wow, you need to get out more and see the world instead of being an owl who only comes out at night to party and go like "huh i dont know what to do in the day? i dont walk in the day" haha and how does one limit the definition of living the life to partying and party and party when theres so much more to life? so yes those are the questions i hate to deal with at this age and any upcoming age. you would think the peer pressure is high but surprisingly its a no to me.

i think i actually leading a pretty normal life even with curfew though now the idea of normal is otherwise but see when youre grown accustomed to something and taught well, you know better yourself. so even when theress temptations and shit, you know better than to give in. i hope you dont see me as a saint just because i bring religion in, its just my view. i know i still do things that islam prohibits too, like not wearing hijab, still wearing tank tops and jeans sometimes even forgetting my prayers, but thats the thing, we all sin in a different way so who are we to judge? this is just my piece of mind, since ive got asked alot and just thought you all should know where im coming from. i may seem reckless in the way i live but there are things that i myself am strict about to myself and dont wish to turn it around as much as im tempted to haha. good day all ;)