Its been quite awhile ever since i last into blogging. perhaps i've got nothing to do at work. so cheers to my second post of this year. i can for-see that i will start blogging again.

 There is something about the fall weather that stirs up a million feelings within me. i cant help but just think about how lucky i am to be where i am right now and how amazed i am about how quickly life tends to pass by. i feel like in a way, we get into this trance which always wanting the next best thing in life, that we never really stop to be grateful for the things we have. when i was a little girl i used to dream about growing up. i felt like being old was the golden age. thinking that im not quite a child anymore but not an adult with real world responsibilities either. i was so obsessed with the fact that growing up meant being free from everything. i fell too hard for people that i cared about and always wanted to explore life and the world. i've always been amazed at how many people enter and exit from my life. its always amazed to see how much people influence our lives. how a kind smile or a warm embrace is enough to make your day so much better or how a fight is enough to ruin your day. i think that everyone that enters my life makes an impact they change my life for the better. i'd like to believe that these kind exchanges are about the heart. life is full of would've, could've, should've of chances you should've taken or things you should've said when you've had the chance to spill your heart's contents. im so thankful for the people who have walked into my life and have changed my life without ever knowing it. who taught me that life isn't always fair but it's a beautiful one and that we should always be grateful for it. and that regrets are never as bad as we think they are because something better eventually finds us. if there’s truly one regret that i can't work through, it's that i've never been grateful for the things that are happening right now. i've always been busy looking ahead at things that might not exactly work out the way i've always pictured them to turn out but throughout it all, i wouldn't change a single second of it. cus i've grown in so many ways and i've learned so many lessons because of the things that my life has taken me through. i guess throughout all of this i hope that even though life is fragile, but its a beautiful one and its the only chance we have to be the best people we can be. so love the ones that love you the way you should be loved, take every chance that life has given you and enjoy what life has given you.