14 January 12

do you ever came across a feeling whereby someone trying their hard to bring you down and act like as if they have never did anything wrong when the fact is you know almost everything about them in their past and worse still their past is even more uglier and darker than yours? yeah, that feeling. sister, it's becus that all this while i respected you, i fucken shut my mouth and willing not to say any single shit about you. but i think you are getting on my nerves. i never thought of even telling mum or dad about you and make you look bad on them. no i never did once do that. i know you are on a changing stage but that doesn't mean you can criticize me or bring me down as and when you wish. you were my all, the one i used to be close to, talk everything to but now there's no more all this. we often fight over a littliest thing and i can see that we are drifting apart. we did talk well eversince you started your 'changing' stage. i don't care all that but i just hate how you are now. i know im the small one in this house, i need that respect too. i know everyone in this house wants the respect. eventhough im the small one and still a kid in your eyes, i still have feelings. you were in my stage before but now not anymore that's why you criticize me every now and than. i'm pretty sure when you were in my stage, in a teenager life stage - growin up stage, people tried to bring you down too right. bedek kalau tak pernah. so yeah, did you still remember the feeling of what you get last time? if yes good but if you don't too bad may allah guide you through everything you do, you know Allah hates their slaves whom criticize others. yes, i cant say all this i know where i am standing, yes im still young and still learning but get this straight, atleast my past, present is cleaner than your past. and i hope in future your past won't touch my future. you know sometimes being the youngest one in the family can lead you to unwanted depression. even if we are in the wrong we still hafta apologize to the old ones but when they are in the wrong? we just hafta keep our fucken mouth shut. remember okay, i'm reaching 17 and still have alot of things to be learn.